So I think that I just must be crazy.

What am I thinking auditioning for a musical. I cant sing. I mean I can hum along and I can characterize the hell out of a song. But I cant sing. I have no skill what so ever. And it takes skill!!

Im a wanna be actor in the best of times, I know where my strengths lie. I know where they dont, and I know I am not a singer. Which sucks because there are so many different roles that I would love to play. But I wont and I am not heartbroken or anything, I just feel a sense of lose of something I will never be able to even try because I am not meant to.

I dont like not being able to do something.

I'm trying to lose weight, the posts may get depressive from here on in. But people are starting to notice. Well I say people but what I mean is the boys at work. They are getting to be a little crazy, I mean dont get me wrong, I love the attention, Im not going to even pretend not to. But sometimes it goes a little too far. Its flattering but thats it. And I must remember to use it as motivation to continue to get fit!