So I get married in 11 months. not a year, cant say a year anymore. that's scary. Im fully ready to go and watch Stephanie get married, that is not scary. Im fully willing to admit that I live paycheck to paycheck and am pretty much broke. That is not scary. I live in London in a city full of gangs and horrible things, that is not scary. Getting married in 11 months is scary.

So to offset this I made pancakes for dinner, regular and chocolate chip. Just to feel like I have some control over my life. As if to say yes I am an adult and if I want to have pancakes for dinner I will. Its sunday and there is no roast for me! Just slap on that butter and golden syrup, give me a side of scrambled eggs and I am a happy camper. And adult happy camper.

I dont know if I have writted about this before but I just cant seem to balance the horse riding and theatre. I dont want to choose one over the other but they just dont seem to work well together. I feel like I am back in high school, make a choice Jo, riding or theatre. and I dont like it!

So I did mention this before but I got my dress for Steph's wedding. its superb. :)